I’m honestly kind of a controlling person. I’ll admit it. I like to know what is going to happen before it happens. I feel like sometimes I HAVE to know. For example, when I would go to the orthodontist they would have to tell me exactly what they did before they did it, no matter how gross or how much it could hurt. Or this one time on an Airplane, when I was about 8 or 9, I left my seat on the plane to try and talk to the pilot just to see if he could tell me what was going to happen incase of certain situations. (I never got to talk to the pilot, the Stewardess stopped me very quickly…) It sounds silly but, I guess it’s just something I’m trying to work through. I would LOVE just a pretty little book or maybe a map of God’s plan. but God gives us situations in life to TEACH us something, things that He wants us to learn. Like I’ve said in previous posts, God isn’t going to just GIVE you what you want all the time! Especially if it is something HE gets to teach you. The GREAT teacher just wants to teach. And we have to be receptive and ready to learn. We can’t give up when it gets hard, we have to STAND back up every time we fall down. Just like little babies who are learning how to walk. They are going to fall but, they get back up because that’s the ONLY way they will be able to learn. And being on the ground is NO fun. So, they get up and try again until they get it. That goes hand and hand with Control. Control is something we sometimes have to learn to give to God, because sometimes the only way for us to learn that is to fall FLAT ON OUR FACES. Not like those pretty, little trip falls. The “OH MY GOSH IS SHE OKAY” kind of falls. The ones that leave a mark not only physically but more so emotionally. The kind of falls that hurt, REALLY hurt. But, God heals that and takes that pain and turns it into an opportunity and a plan! God never teaches us all at once, just step by step because He wants to teach us to walk by FAITH not by SIGHT. One of my favorite quotes right now is, “One of the most arduous spiritual tasks is that of Giving up CONTROL and allowing the Sprit of God to lead our lives” that’s by Henri Nouwen. It’s completely true. Giving that up is NOT easy especially when you are the kind of person who likes to have everything planned out. It can be scary. It can not make sense. It can drive you crazy. It can feel uneasy. But, it can also bring you peace. It can make things clearer. It can drive you in the most PERFECT direction. And it can make you feel incredible. It’s like a weight being lifted off your shoulders. Trusting in HIS perfect, BEAUTIFUL plan. That can be one of the most FREEING things in the entire world. To know that we don’t have to fight our battles alone. “The LORD will fight for you; You just need to only be still” Exodus 14:14. To know that He will FIGHT. He will take our pain and our suffering is so incredibly powerful. We cannot fulfill God’s plans for our lives while we are focusing on our own feelings. All God asks of us to to ask for Him. He’s there with wonderful, strong, open arms ready to hold us. Not only hold us but hold our problems. God replaces our fears with incredible FAITH, our pain with a specific PURPOSE, and our obstacles with open opportunities. God holds us in his MIGHTY, and beautiful hands. HOW AMAZING AND AWESOME is that? God will never let doors close without opening another one. He cares for the birds, don’t you think He is going to take care of you? He knows every intricate part of you. He knows how many hairs you have on your head, and how many you loose in your hair brush. He knows how many pieces of sand are on the beaches, and how many stick to your shoes as you leave. He knows what you’re thinking all the time, even when you are driving and some one cuts you off. He knows every little detail about you. That’s comforting.To know that He knows everything about us and He fights for us. He takes away our pain and our burdens. He’s powerful, and He can handle EVERYTHING. Yes, even control issues.
So, PRAY for that direction to follow his plan,
PATIENCE to wait for it and to be receptive of it,
and for the KNOWLEDGE to know when it comes. 🙂